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Thu Aug 27 06:00:01 EDT 2020
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Slept from eleven to seven without waking.
Mostly sunny early in the morning, then partly cloudy with slight chance of showers late in the morning.
Partly cloudy with chance of showers and thunderstorms in the afternoon.
Highs in the lower 90s.
West winds 10 to 15 mph with gusts to around 30 mph.
Chance of precipitation 40 percent.
Twenty-minute walk this morning.
Sunny and hot.
Cicadas already singing.
Drove the car around for twenty minutes.
Cried loudly in the shower this morning.
For myself, I guess, and the death of a friendship, which is worse than a real death in some ways, since the parts of the person that you like are still out there, separated from you.
It pains me that I can't maintain close friendships;
that's mostly my fault, I guess, but not in this particular case.
How far am I supposed to go to maintain a friendship with someone who has always been great in some ways — thoughtful, funny, giving — but has increasingly embraced and magnified their anxiety and hate?
I'm alone.
Should probably find a therapist, but a therapist isn't a friend.
Work
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- De-penalize mail from onewayclean
Done.
- Test OpenVPN settings with Carolyn
Done.
- Increase rent on HS unit
Done.
- Finish creation of accounts for next round of migrations
Done.
- Follow up on Alltronics hardware for Greg
No.
- Follow up on Alltronics hardware for Robin
No.
- Count main office laptops (needed/have)
No.
- Count central maintenance laptops (needed/have)
No.
Talked to Scott about Ed for a couple minutes, and felt a little better.
Crows and cicadas.
Home
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- Drive car
Done.
- Pay AAA membership and YES bill
Done.
- Mail tilde root about /etc/security/limits.conf
Done.
Ed called me at lunch.
I answered.
He's upset that he upset me, but he doesn't seem to question his views at all.
He feels like the mainstream media is lying about everything, and he's compelled to investigate to find the truth.
We left it without conclusion.
Jay sent this link:
https://www.washingtonpost.com/nation/2018/12/07/make-better-choices-endangered-hawaiian-monk-seals-keep-getting-eels-stuck-up-their-noses-scientists-want-them-stop/
> ‘Make better choices’: Endangered Hawaiian monk seals keep getting eels stuck up their noses and scientists want them to stop
> A relaxed-looking juvenile Hawaiian monk seal lounges near a sandy white beach on some green foliage. Its eyes are half-closed, and it has a serene expression on its face. But the seal’s calm demeanor is surprising.
> Why? Well, there’s a long, black-and-white eel dangling from its right nostril.
> “It’s just so shocking,” Claire Simeone, a veterinarian and monk seal expert based in Hawaii, told The Washington Post on Thursday. “It’s an animal that has another animal stuck up its nose.”
> “We have no idea why this is suddenly happening,” Littnan said. “You see some very strange things if you watch nature long enough, and this could end up being one of these little oddities and mysteries of our careers that 40 years from now, we’ll be retired and still questioning quite how this happened.”
> Researchers have already determined this is not the result of a human with a personal vendetta against seals and eels, because all the cases were reported from remote islands that are frequented only by scientists. Littnan said he does have a few theories about how an eel could naturally end up wedged in a seal’s nostril.
> “It almost does feel like one of those teenage trends that happen,” he said. “One juvenile seal did this very stupid thing and now the others are trying to mimic it.”
> In general, Simeone said, marine animals are “very stoic.” She added, “It’s amazing the kinds of things they can tolerate.”
> While “eel snorting” has yet to really catch on in the seal community, Littnan said he hopes it never does.
Ordered Charmin toilet paper from Amazon!
Not but extra string stuff I prefer, but still nice.
https://blogs.psychcentral.com/caregivers/2016/04/10-things-you-should-do-with-someone-who-is-delusional/
> 1. Pay attention to the emotions of the person
> 2. Discuss the way you see the delusion
> 3. Express that you are concerned about the person
> 5. Ask the person why they believe as they do and be open-minded
> 6. Avoid getting frustrated and expressing that to the person
> 8. Do model engaging in reality testing
I messaged Ed:
> Ed, I'm sorry I got so frustrated. I care about you. I'll try to give your concerns more consideration before calling everybody a Nazi. Sometimes I'll need to step away from a conversation, but I didn't mean the play the "I'm not your friend anymore" card.
Called Mom to say hello.
Nice to be able to make calls with my headset through Google Fi in Gmail.
Today's been emotionally exhausting.
I also have to acknowledge I've put a lot of limits on how I live in order to emotionally insulate myself from other people.
IRC is where it's at in tildeverse.
Catgirl is a pretty good IRC client.
Rejoined Mongrel Banquet Club!
It's quiet. :(
Fat, bright slightly-more-than-half moon tonight.
Servings: grains 6/6, fruit 2/4, vegetables 3/4, dairy 4/2, meat 2/3, nuts 0/0.5
Brunch: cucumber, banana, coffee
Lunch: orange, egg and avocado wrap
Dinner: macaroni and cheese with tomatoes, chips
117/71
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